palegirl87

My problems ... My cat

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 05:39:56 GMT

I felt like telling people about my life... *Have nothing else to do, is bored...*

Bad stuff:
It all began when I was a kid and began school. I was at once being mocked and harassed, and it's always been like that throughout school. I didn't get a real friend until HS. And in 2001 my parents divorced, that was great! really! Cause my dad has always been a jerk, and has never been a part of raising me or cared for my life. He always just used my mom and yelled at her and such. And when I hit puberty at the age of 15, I hit the wall... Everything that had ever happened to me got "into" me, and I started to get psroblems, was alot away from school cause of sickness also cause of period problems (I have a VERY unnormal period, I have WAY to much bleeding and am dizzy cause of blood loss most of the time during my period, + I got a long period to, it should last from 3-5 days, mine lasts at least 7 days.) I also got phobia of school when I hit puberty, cause of all the bad stuff that had happened to me there. I got sick of thinking of going to school since I knew what would happen. I barely managed to graduate HS. I tried to begin college thinking the kids would be more grown up there and not mock and harass, well I was WRONG! I was there for some days, and then quited. Then tried again the next year, I didn't even make it onto school grounds cause I knew what would happen. And althrough all school teachers did not care about me being bullied. In autumn 2003 I was sent to be examinated on a mental institution, they found out I have Angst, Phobia and Asperger Syndrome a year later http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome
Illnesses I got is:
Allergy to pollen, grass, animals, cigarettes (I don't smoke but all my family and friends does. This year I started getting headaches and nausea when I inhale smoke).
Also got Lactose intolerance and Chocolate intolerance.
I have a BAD stomach problem, everything I eat it hates! And I get these FUCKING pains that leaves me imobile and I seriously want to kill myself during those pains. I have taken around 14 blood tests (good thing I'm not scared by that stuff, been on x ray several of times, been on gastroscopy http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gastroscope
No one found out what is wrong with me...
I've always been a Alternative medicine person. All those pills doctors give you, just drugs you down, I always hated that stuff. So for my physical and mental problems I go to Reiki healing. Healing HELPS! People has to realize that! I'm alot better now then I was around 2 months ago.

I was also molested and almost raped by my 2 year older cousine when I was around 7 - 12 or so...

Just for the record I'm not christian. Cause that religion is just so messed up!
I like the buddhist religion.

Good stuff:
I've always loved playstation since that came. I've always loved Asia and Japan especially, cause of the culture and such. And cause of that I also got to know about Anime/Manga. And in January 2003 came my life saver (was suicidal back then) J-Rock! It's so cool, interesting and surreal this J-Rock. I'm truly facinated by it. So I had something to live for, I know it sounds fucking cliche but it's true. I have been EXTREMLY LUCKY to get to see the amazing Dir En Grey in Berlin both in 1005 and 2006. That was two of the best days in my life. I just forgot all of my problems and pains and just enjoyed the concert.

How my cat Miss Sophie came into my life:
Around one week before x-mas in 1999, there where a starved freezing cat outside of our house were I lived before. I started taking care of it and put up posters and sent adds to the paper about if someone was missing this cat. But no one did, and I got my parents (who wasn't divoreced at the time) to let me keep the cat. They thought I was gonna be like so many other kids and let my parents be the ones to take care of the cat, but I've always loved animals and especially cat animals, and I love taking care off them, so I proved them wrong. The cat is a she, and we gave her the name Miss Sophie.
She has soon been living with us for 7 years.

New cosplays

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 00:30:53 GMT

I'm gonna make an Ayane from Dead Or Alive costume, and Kaoru's Kimono from the indie days. Has jsut started today on the Ayane one. Not much happening here in boring Norway, so not much to write about...

My first con!

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 12:23:51 GMT

Alright! My first con was awsome! I was cosplaying Kadaj. People saw me and was like: "OMG! Awsome cosplay!" Me: *blush* Them: "Did you make it you're self?" Me: *blush again* Yes! ^_^" Them: "Awsome! How did you get you're hair silver? O_O It looks so cool!" Me:*blush* Bleached 9 times and colored silver 4 times." Them: "Wow! Can we take a pic?" Me: "Of course!" I even had fangirls XD, they wanted to hug me and all. Lol! Many awsome cosplayers and fun stuff there! Can't wait for the next con. ^_^

Things are actually going very well for me now. Got good grades, got money, has gotten 3 new friends in a short period off time, one of them a really cool close friend, he is awsome! He made my sleepless nights much better (has had sleeping problems for a looong time). You know who you are. ^_^
The two others I met on the con. But unfortunatly they live pretty long away from me even though they live in Norway. Why do I have to live in this damn boring country called Norway? Oh well, I'll save up money and see if I can get myself to Anime Expo next year, very small chance but I've always wanted to go on that con!

I want a boyfriend! T_T I've wanted one for sooooooooo long! I'm just to DAMN shy when it comes to boys.

Last year around Autumn (I think it was) my mom tried to hook me up with a jerk of a guy. Cause her friend had a son my age. And mom , her friend and her son was gonna drive and get a closet that my mom had bought. And when they came back she invited them in. I quickly found out he had almost nothing in common with me. His mom was curious on my J-Rock stuff so I showed them The Code Of Vulgar[ism] they didn't like it, but that was expected. Then they left I thought I wasn't gonna see him again. And suddenly one of the following days I get an sms saying "Hi there cutie!" I reacted "WTF! Who's number is this?! And how dear this peraon call me cutie?!" (Dosn't like being called that if she is not acting cute, and don't like being called chick etc it's just to tacky.) Then I asked my mom if she knew the number, and she tells me that: "Oh yeah my friends son wanted you're number, so I gave it to him. *Smile*" and then she said that he was gonna have pizza at our house and I was gonna make it (I love cooking and such) but she fucking gave him my number and arranged a date with him. And I didn't want that! Of course not! I got SO ANGRY! If I would have been interested in him I would have told my mom." And she even said that she could work overtime at work so we could be alone! O_O I begged her to come home as usual, and I luckily got her into doing that. And on the day of the date I didn't want whatsoever, I put the Code Of Vulgar[ism] in the dvd player and cranked it up real high (Was living in a house then, oh how I miss that!), and start making the pizza, and then the doorbell rang as I had dreaded, so I open, he comes in stays at the kitchen talking to me, and then goes to sit in the living room watching the Vulgar[ism] dvd. The only song he liked was Kasumi. Then the pizza is finished and my mom comes home, we eat and watch tv. So he goes out to take a cig, and he asks if I want to come with him I didn't want to. But my mom forced me too, and he is sitting in his car smoking and playing Red Hot Chili Peppers he has some good taste in music but not much. And then he asks if I want a cig (he knows I don't smoke) and I say no of course. I thought the time spent in the car never was gonna end and I was sitting with one foot out of it prepeared to run if needed, when it ended with nothing happening we went inside and watched more tv and I started going on and on about what kinda guys I like. And then after that he hasn't tried to hit on me. And after we moved he hasn't contacted me either.

Can't wait til my first convention!

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 00:30:59 GMT

On Saturday I'm going to my first con! And I can't WAIT! *_*
I'll be cosplaying Kadaj, but I have yet not gotten my contacts and I'm getting really annoyed cause I NEED them!
Otherwise the costume is gonna be done on Thursday.